Well, now that I know why he hasn’t really called me in a couple of days, it all makes sense. I’m just glad I cross his mind.
dana’s 10pm thoughts:
i love my family, yes, but damn what i wouldn’t do to be a shaytard
A 7 minute phone call was all I needed. At least now I know he’s okay and he’s just worn out and fed up. I feel so bad for him.
I gotta admit, the silence is killing me.
Here I am, sitting alone in my room, heart broken again. I know that to him I’m just a friend and more importantly, just a kid, but he needs to know that he can call me and talk to me or call me just to vent at any moment and I wouldn’t care. We all need someone we can talk to who will just listen to us and let us get it all out. Sucks that we didn’t talk at all today, except for the message he wrote me, but, I should be used to it by now. I can’t wait until he signs this contract, gets the new house, gets his company back up and running, and can finally quit his job because the politics and the physical labor are going to kill him. It’s so frustrating being 90 miles away and not being able to do anything.
so today it snowed for the first time this year and ive naturally been online all day and didnt know so i went to take out the garbage in bare feet and stepped in an inch snow and i just yelled "what the fUCK" and i just heard my neighbour in his backyard go “oh my god she’s outside”